Jag nästan vet att jag kommer hamna på badrumsgolvet med ett rakblad. Har tagit Sobril nu. Är livrädd. Blir förbannad. Arg. Hatar att jag skall vara såhär. Jag vill bara vara i funktion. Dra bort den där jävla hinnan över ögonen som skriker ur funktion och bli frisk. Mina humörsvängningar kommer bli min död.


I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

P.S. Trent Reznor är min karl